You Say You Love Me

You say that you love the rain

But when it rains, you use an umbrella

Protecting your self for getting wet

You say love the sun

But when the sun shines brightly, you search for a shadow

And hide yourself behind it

You say you love the wind

But when the wind comes, you close the window

You don’t want to get the cold

That’s the reason why I’m scared when you say “I love you” to me

Our Home Is The Same Afterall

 "The King and the Poor Man"

There was a king who decided to take a tour of his country. As he passed by different places, everyone rushed to see him. However, while passing by a certain place, he noticed a poor old man who did not pay any attention to the king's arrival and remained engaged in his own activities.

The king went up to this poor man and asked why he did not join the people to see him. The poor man replied, "Before you, there was another king who once passed by this place. Everyone gathered to see him as well. But, few days later he died and was buried in a place nearby. A poor man also died during that time and was buried near the king's grave.

After some time, a strong flood passed through that area causing those graves to overturn. As a result, the bones of the poor man became mixed up with those of the king's. We could not differentiate between them any longer. After seeing this, it does not matter to me anymore as to who is a king and who is a beggar. "In the end, our home is the same."

 

 

source: united muslim nations

100 truths

ID:
born at: October 27, 1992
Weight: 47 kg
Height: 161 cm
Hobby : reading books, hanging out with my bestfriends, jogging, watching movies

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: water :D
2. Last phone call: my father
3. Last text message: my bestfriend, SHIKA
4. Last song you listened to: perfect two by Auburn

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone: never dated anyone, I have my own commitment on this dating thingy
7. Been cheated on: umm may be haha
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nahhh, never kissed someone.. but if the question isn’t someone but something, then YES! I have
9. Lost someone special: yeahh :’(
10. Been depressed: yeah, i’ve been played, he made me put my hope high, then he crushed it..it hurt as hell
11. Been drunk and threw up: BIG NO!!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Purple
13. Red
14. Black

LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: absolutely
17. Laughed until you *nearly* cried: it happened a lot
18. Met someone who changed you: ummm, no.. no one will ever  change me, but someone may be the reason I change
19. Found out who your true friends were: yeaa, they’re my bestfriends when I was in high school
20. Found out someone was talking about you: noo
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: haha, nahh
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: half or more
23. How many kids do you want to have: may be 1 or 2
24. Do you have any pets: yes, a duck.. well, he’s dead now
25. Do you want to change your name: NO!! my parents have  given me the best name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: ummmm, I forget hahha
27. What time did you wake up today:  7 am haha
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping and dreaming, duh!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my future, may be?
30. Last time you saw your Mother:  just now
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: noo, im perfectly happy for who I am now
32. What are you listening to right now: I want it that way by backstreet boys
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: YEAH!! He was my exchange teacher while I was in high school
34. What's getting on your nervous right now: my future
35. Most visited webpage: my blog, twitter, tumblr
36. What’s your real name: Dewi Lestari
37. Nicknames: dewi, dedew, iwed
38. Relationship Status: IM SINGLE AND HAPPY
39. Zodiac sign?: Scorpio
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: SD N bendan ngisor 01-02
42. Middle School?: SMP N 13 Semarang
43. High school/college?: 3 International State Senior High school
44. Hair colour: a bit red
45. Tall or short: tall, may be haha
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yeah, kinda
48. What do you like about yourself? : umm, dunno
49. Piercings: only on my ears, for wearing earrings, of course
50. Tattoos: NO
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: when I was about 3 years old
53. First piercing: when I was baby, may be haha
54. First best friend: Manar fathul hanifah sutisna ( my elementary school friend)
55. First sport you joined: umm, running?
56. First vacation : jogja
58. First job : teaching my neighbours haha
59. Eating: rice?
60. Drinking: water?
61. Doing: blogging, writing, reading, hanging out, jogging
62. Listening to: music, duh! I don’t like listening to bullshit
63. Waiting for: being accepted in STAN.. amin J

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?:  sure, but noy now
65. Get Married?: im still having my education!
66. Career?: prosecutor or STAN, hopefully.. but my mom wants me to be like my grandpa, Pilot
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: lips
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic hahaha
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant



HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Eww NO!
77. Drank hard liquor: NO and hopefully NEVER
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes, I have
79. Sex on first date: WTF? No sex before marriage, because once you have sex before you’re married, you’ll get pregnant and die haha
80. Broken someone's heart: ummm, may be?
82. Been arrested: never
83. Turned someone down: may be?
84. Cried when someone died: YES
85. Fallen for a friend? : nope


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: OF COURSE
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: not really
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: NO
92. Angels: YES, they sure exist

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: pernah pacaran aja engga
95. Did you sing today?: YEP, who doesn’t?
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: no, I would never go back in time,, like I said in the first place, im perfectly happy where I am now
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: nope, I don’t wanna relive anything in my life
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: YES
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: SURE

Allah give me everything i need

I asked for Wisdom...
And ALLAH gave me Problems to solve.

I asked for prosperity...
And ALLAH gave me a Brain and Brawn to work .

I asked for Courage...
And ALLAH gave me obstacles to overcome.

I asked for Love...
And ALLAH gave me Troubled people to help.

I asked for Favors...
And ALLAH gave me Opportunities.

“I received nothing I wanted...
But I received everything I needed."

 

 

Don't Forget

Did you forget, Did you forget about me? 

Did you forget how we met at the first time?

Did you forget your first text you sent to me?

Did you forget the first time you took me out to the movies?

Did you regret ever loving me?

Did you regret ever caring to me?

Did you forget what we were feeling inside?

Did you forget everything we ever had?

I can’t believe I’ve put my self into these memories

It’s choking me

You once loved me

We had it all

We were getting closer and there was no where I’d rather be

those memories will live on me forever

please don’t forget

because I won’t forget

I won’t forget about you, about us

You used to tell me what sport you were really into

You made my days more colorful just like  rainbow

You used to give me love songs I would like to listen

And I got twisted with everything you said

You gave me respect, you gave me love

Nothing in between

I’m not about to remind you with the pain you gave to me

I just want you to remember all the sweetest things that ever happened to us

Did you forget ever saying to me you weren’t a prince that could make every princess fall in love with ?

Did you forget ever asking me to wait you?

Did you regret getting closer to me?

I know what we had  will never happen again

We would never be a thing

We were never meant to be

But sure you were the best thing that ever happened to me

Everything we’ve been through, it’s sweet bitterness

You are my sweetest past

And all the past is just a lesson that we’ve learned

Please don’t forget our past

Don’t forget about us :)

KEEP YOUR HAND MOVING

Menulis adalah salah satu cara untuk mengemukakan pikiran, unek-unek, diari atau hanya sekedar mencurahkan perasaan sesaat yang ada di benak mereka. Banyak media yang digunakan untuk menyalurkan tulisan seperti Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr dan masih banyak lag media di internet lainnyai. Sebenarnya setiap orang, setiap insane manusia  bisa menulis, namun untuk dapat menghasilkan sebuah tulisan yang berkualitas dan memiliki daya ketertarikan tersendiri untuk dibaca, tidak semua orang bisa. Dibutuhkan suatu keahlian khusus untuk dapat menghasilkan tulisan yang enak untuk dibaca. Suatu keahlian yang sebenarnya bisa dimiliki setiap orang.  Nah, Di buku karya Anwar Holid yang berjudul “ Keep Your Hand Moving” di jelaskan beberapa tips mengenai  cara menulis dan mengedit.

Ya, Keep Your Hand Moving berarti gerakkan terus tanganmu. Maksudnya jangan mencoret, jangan mengedit sewaktu menulis, jangan berpikir, gerakkan terus tanganmu untuk menulis, jangan pedulikan kesalahan kata atau ketidak logisan yang mungkin terjadi, tidak perlu memikirkan tanda baca, lepaskan control tanganmu, biarkan bergerak untuk menemukan urat nadinya.

Di dalam bukunya, Anwar Holid  menjelaskan bagaimana menghasilkan tullisan yang bagus dan layak, megedit dan memolesnya sehingga pantas untuk dipublikasikan.disinilah kalimat ‘keep your hand moving” di perlukan. Gerakkan terus jari-jarimu. Yang penting tulis saja, apapun itu, walau hanya sekedar menjawab wall atau message teman di facebook, atau menulis diari. Alokasikan waktumu seefektif mungkin untuk menulis. Bagi pemula yang ingin menulis, Anwar Holid menyarankan untuk menulis 10-25 menit setiap hari untuk membangun kebiasaan menulis. Dan dia juga menyarankan bagi pemula untuk tidak perlu takut untuk menuangkan dan menempelkan pikiran orang lain ke dalam tulisan dan pikiran sendiri. Tentunya dengan syarat di dalam tulisan itu kita harus mengutarakan bahwa tulisan tersebut merupakan pikiran orang lain. Demikian yang disampaikan Anwar Holid di dalam bukunya.

A MESSAGE FOR YOU: P.S. I HATE YOU

A MESSAGE FOR YOU: P.S. I HATE YOU

It was the first time we met

Didn’t know why my heart was beating so fast, it was weird

I knew this could be something, something really special between us

Then,

You started it, you texted me for the first time

It was real, it was you texting me

As if you knew that I was checking on you

We were getting closer and closer day by day

We talk about ourselves, our likes, our dislikes, everything

I felt like flying, you took me to the highest mountain

I know I shouldn’t have put my hope that high

Because if the reality isn’t as high as the hope itself, it’ll be really painful

But I got blinded, I couldn’t see all the risks

All I saw was beautiful dreams I created, and there were only me and you

That day, it was Thursday

 you picked me up, you took me to the movie for the first time

I couldn’t describe how I felt that day, I was so happy

I still clearly remember what happened in that whole day

I remember what you wore,

you wore a shirt and a blue jeans with a jacket on, oh and you wore sneakers

I remember all what you said,

You asked me what my favorite music was

You told me about how smart your brother was

You told me the trick why your brother could get a high score in his college

I didn’t like the way you say my name, but somehow it didn’t even bother me

Gosh, the way you talked hypnotized me

Your voice was so….. I couldn’t tell, it was just peaceful hearing your voice

I remember your scent, it was so delightful

You smelled so good that day

Before the movie started, you asked me if I was hungry

Then you took me to a restaurant

I was really enjoying that day, just you and me

The clock didn’t seem so alive for me, it suddenly got evening

And you drove me home,

I actually didn’t want to go home, yet my parents insisted me to go home soon

Because when I’m with you I can feel it, when I’m with you I’m home, I don’t want to go away

that was an unforgettable day for me

I will never forget that day, the day you probably will never remember

In the next days, you stopped texting me

You pushed me away

I never expected that you ended something you started

I never thought I was gonna lose your careness

It’s killing me to see you go after all this time we shared before

As if nothing  ain’t going right for me

My friends keep telling me I should follow my heart

But you broke my heart into million pieces, what piece I should follow then?

Yeah that’s right! my heart was taken by you, broken by you, and now it’s in pieces because of you

You brought me down, you let me down

How could you do this to me?

How could you break my heart that I trusted to you?

How could you tear my dreams apart?

How could you, huh?

I can’t figure out this, never

 I didn’t know you were a hearbreaker and dreamtaker

If I knew that you were just gonna break my heart, I would never fall in love with you

NEVER!!!

Do you know how it felt?

It felt like thousands knives stabbing my heart

A month has passed since the day you pushed me away

I still can’t forget the pain you gave

I act like seeing you isn’t bothering me at all, but deep down inside it’s killing me

You can still smile, as if there is nothing to worry about

As if you did nothing wrong to me

As if nothing never happened

Do you know that your smile kills me slowly?

You smile on the pain I feel inside

It hurts me, so badly

I don’t know why but  just by seeing your face hurts me, yet another things about you

No matter how much I try to heal the pain by making my self busy with something elses, you always try breaking into my shields and come through my head

I get sidetracked from my day just by thinking about you

You even don’t feel sorry for what you did to me

Now I hate you, so much

I hate everything about you that I used to love

I hate your hair, I hate your presence, I hate your scent

I hate your voice, I hate you, I hate you!!!

I hate the way you dumped me

Arrrggghhhhhh

I am so gonna make your life as miserable as you made mine

But I can’t, I’m not that kind of girl

And when you see I ignore you, It’s because my heart’s still fragile

I can’t stand the pain I feel when I see you around me

And the last but not least,

 I have a message for you:

You can’t keep messing with girl’s feeling just because you’re unsure of your own

That’s not fair

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal

You have to consider how you make others feel with your action

And please don’t make a girl fall for you if you don’t plan to catch her                     

P.S. I HATE YOU

Seharusnya Aku Tak Menunggu

Seharusnya Aku Tak Menunggu

kau bilang

"aku akan datang"

tapi kau tak kunjung datang juga

aku tahu, seharusnya aku tak usah menunggumu

lebih baik tidur dan bermimpi saja

daripada menyaksikan malam berlalu

dan bulan tenggelam dengan perlahan-lahan

tapi tapi tapi,

sekarang kau bilang

"aku tidak akan datang"

dan aku pun mulai mengharapkan kedatanganmu

apakah aku telah belajar memahamimu??

Sulit buat memahami semuanya

tapi perlahan akan kucoba untuk memahami kamu dan semua masa lalu ini

hanya untukmu

aku tau aku tidak sempurna

dan bukankah tidak ada yang sempurna di dunia ini?

aku bukan wanita yang bisa memberikan arti cinta yang sesungguhnya kepadamu

aku bukan wanita itu

dan kini aku telah menyadari betapa sakitnya hatiku

hatiku yang dulu pernah mencintaimu

dan ironisnya rasa itu masih ada hingga saat ini

meski aku tau kau tidak bersamaku

meski aku tau kau telah permainkan aku

tidakkah kau tau telah ku berikan hatiku hanya untukmu?

telah ku korbankan ragaku untukmu

telah ku luangkan waktuku hanya untuk memikirkanmu

semudah itukah kau lupakan?

begitu banyak pertanyaan dalam benakku untukmu

kenapa dulu kau beri aku harapan jika kau memang tak suka?

kenapa dulu kau peduli pada hari-hariku kalau memang kau tak cinta?

kenapa dulu kau biarkan aku menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti kau berikan?

katakan yang sejujur-jujurnya padaku kenapa kau lakukan itu

argggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kau membuatku tak waras

aku membencimu, aku menghujatmu

tapi jauh di dasar hatiku aku masih mencintaimu

bodoh!!

aku merasa dunia ini tidak adil padaku

disaat aku mencintainya dengan sepenuh hatiku, dia malah mempermainkanku

disaat aku mulai berharap lebih padanya, dia malah menghancurkan harapan-harapanku

disaat aku mempunyai seribu alasan untuk meninggalkannya tetapi aku tetap mencari satu alasan saja untuk tetap mencintai dan bertahan untuknya, dia malah seenaknya dan tidak menyadari apa kesalahannya

disaat aku mencintai seluruh kelebihan dan kekurangannya, dia malah hanya mau mencintai kelebihanku dan meghujat kekuranganku

disaat aku bahagia karena dia mulai peduli pada keseharianku, dia malah pergi dan mulai menghindariku.

disaat aku mempercayai semua janjinya, dia malah mengingkarinya, bahkan dia lupa pernah berjanji kepadaku

disaat aku butuh tempat untuk mencurahkan keluh kesahku, dia malah tidak peduli dan kalaupun peduli itupun hanya sekedar kata "oh".

disaat bunga-bunga cinta dan sayang mulai bersemi untuknya, dia malah merusaknya dan membiarkanya mati begitu saja. 

disaat dia begitu berarti di dalam hatiku, dia malah menganggapku tidak berarti dan berharga sama sekali untuk hidupnya

eh tapi terimakasih aku ucapkan untukmu

kau mengajarkan aku untuk mencintai dengan ikhlas

kau mengajariku untuk tidak perlu menjadi orang yang sempurna untuk orang yang aku cintai

terimakasih aku ucapkan untukmu

random game

RULES of THE GAME
1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.

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1. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

Eenie meenie- justin bieber feat sean kingston

“ hahahahaha what the fuck does this mean?”
2.WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

U smile- justin bieber

“ great!! It’s exactly what I feel, I like when people smile”
3.HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Walking with the bass – barry likumahuwa
4.WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

La La Land – demi lovato

“ no idea”
5.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Air plane – travis garland
6.WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Where do you go - fort minor

“ they miss me????? It’s great being missed by my friends. lol”
7.WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Beautiful – christina aguilera

“ I am beautiful no matter what they say :D”
8.WHAT IS 2+2?

That’s how you know – demi lovato
9.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Can’t be tamed – miley cyrus
10.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Terpesona – glenn fredly feat audy

“ sumpah ini pas banget!!”
11.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Over – drake

“GOSH!! Does it mean my life is over?”
12.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Love story  - taylor swift

“ not really -___-“
13.WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Billionaire – travie McCoy feat bruno mars

“ hope I’ll die as a billionaire hahaha”
14.WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING?

Favorite girl – justin bieber

“ of course I’ll be my future husband’s fav girl “
15.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Thank god I found you – mariah carey

“BINGO!! that’s exactly what I think….”
16.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Somebody to love – justin bieber

“ doesn’t it mean my hobby is searching somebody to love? Ewww!!! It’s pathetic”
17.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Lovebug – jonas brothers

“ really? I don’t really kinda  catch a lovebug, duh!”
18.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Not afraid – eminem

“ yeah, they’re never afraid of anything, they’re strong and great friends”
19.WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?

Heal the world – michael jackson

“ huh?”
20.WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?

Januari – glenn fredly

“ astaga, masya Allah, lagi-lagi pas”
21.WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?

Hero – sterling knight
22.WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?

The climb – miley cyrus

“honestly, there is nothing I regret of.. I’ve been blessed having my life I live now”
23.HOW WILL YOU DIE?

Gravity – pixie lott

“ummmmmmm, stop confusing me”
24.WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?

California girl – katy perry feat snoop dog

“naughty hahahaha”
25.WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Party in the USA – miley cyrus

“ gak nyambung ah”
26.DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?

A little too not over you – david archuleta

“ can’t figure what this means, or,,,,,,, may be someone cant be over me hahaha”
27.WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?

I’m yours – jason mraz

“ yeah I’m scared to be yours hahaha”
28.IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?

A thousand miles – david archuleta

“Honestly, I don’t wanna change anything. Past is past, it’s just a history. My life is  beautiful the way it is”
29.WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

That should be me – justin bieber

“aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa”