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Rabu, 09 Februari 2011

77 things i wanna do before i die

      1.       dye my hair light brown
2.       have a duck
3.       finding a wishing well ( ha! sounds impossible, but nothing's in this world is impossible)
4.       ride in a helicopter or even a jet? hahaha
5.       go to the bottom of the sea
6.       go to vancouver, Canada
7.       meet justin bieber, then hug him, kiss him, be his girlfriend, marry him, have kids with him (and this is going too far hahhaha:D)
8.       go skydiving with my litlle brother
9.       have checks with lots of zeros on 'em
10.   get to be on TV (for not something bad, surely)
11.   go around Indonesia
12.   go to south america ( ya know, it's like america but SOUTH)
13.   have tons of sugar (FYI, i do really like sugar, don't judge!)
14.   candle light dinner with my beloved family in Eiffel tower
15.   speak fluently in english, french, spanish and arabic
16.   have a latin or american husband
17.   be a diplomat ( this should be on the 1st of this lists)
18.   go to mecca with my beloved family
19.   build a tent inside my room
20.   make my mom proud of what i've achieved
21.   see a rainbow ( already did)
22.   be strong and not clumsy anymore (on my way to achieve this)
23.   try to stop china buliding their reign of made-in-chine products
24.   build belitung as a great city
25.   read mein kampf (already did, but it was part I)
26.   have a good handwriting, at least, readable hahaha
27.   not to babble anymore when i'm nervous
28.   wanna meet a girl who always says say what
29.   have my drive license ( i know i'm 18 now, PATHETIC)
30.   prank my little brother ( i did it everyday)
31.   have my own credit cards, just like dad's
32.   touch a monk's head
33.   paint my room into purple
34.   see a real angel
35.   stand on a highest mountain with someone really special
36.   write a blog ( upps already did, but not perfect yet)
37.   have a white guinnea pig
38.   bath in dead sea
39.   ride in a hot air balloon
40.   backpack through europe
41.   married and have kids
42.   earn money by myself, and not to spend daddy's money anymore
43.   pay mommy's bills
44.   go to las vegas for my little brother's wedding party
45.   build a school for those who can't go to school because of finance reason
46.   have my pascasarjana in foreign country ( preferebly in US)
47.   climb mount everest
48.   ride a horse
49.   buy my daddy a house
50.   pet a tiger on my backyard
51.   go fishing and actually catch a fish or more
52.   live with my family in france and spend the old years over there
53.   invent something, hmmm i don't know what yet, but definitely will invent something :)
54.   move out of the country
55.   be in 2 places at once (sounds incredible, yeah!)
56.   have a clown fish on my bathroom
57.   go to egypt and see pyramid
58.   stand in a great wall in china
59.   wear the cutest wedding dress in the history of wedding dress on my wedding party
60.   personallly help to destroy hunger and poverty in my beloved country, Indonesia
61.   get revenge to someone who badly hurt my heart
62.   go on a peace mission in middle east
63.   personally help to feed ethiopia
64.   learn how to surf
65.   write my lifes trory for my children and grandchildren
66.   rent a cottage in bali with my husband
67.   go to north and south pool
68.   shop in forever 21
69.   fly a plane by myself
70.   help to build a house for kids with no parents
71.   go to mount fuji in japan
72.   show all the jewish how great Muslim is by doing something, still don't know how and what yet
73.   show kids in my country how bad the impact of free sex
74.   get to be in the UNICEF missions for children accross the world, any mission
75.   see and catch fireflies
76.   not using any plastic products anymore for a better mother of nature
77.   make all of this lists come true, yeaaahhhhh!!!

Senin, 07 Februari 2011

try to convince myself

i will not think about him..

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Oh My Gosh!! who am i kidding??!!!!!

moving on

Soooooooo
if someone broke my heart again, whoever it is, i WILL NOT feel sad and devastated anyomore, NO!!
i will just say to him whom broke my heart
" if you miss me, just watch over the stars up above the sky"
and if he asks why. i will answer him innocently
" because after you hurt me and broke my heart into million pieces, i'll just be a star for you, you can always stare at me and dream of me but you will never reach me once more"

just something random :)

hmmm here we go, ima tell you guys my opinion about us girls.
okay, for me girls are like apples on trees.
 
so why i said that? because the best apples are at the top of the tree. the boys dont want want to reach for the good ones. they're afraid of falling and getting hurt, instead they just get the rotten apples that are laying on the ground. the apples they aren't good but easy to get. so the apples at the top think that there is someting wrong with them, while in fact, they are much more amazing and wonderful than the apples boys get from the ground. that is why, we girls. just have to be a little bit patient and sure someday the right boy, the one who dares to take a precious chance to find we, the good apples.

Rabu, 02 Februari 2011

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