this is what I call "love"

Now, let me ask you. What will you do if the one you are truly in love with is loving someone else? Do you still wanna tell him how you feel about him and make him to be yours forever?

Kalau kamu menjawab iya, then for me it’s not love.  Itu hanya perasaan ingin memiliki. Cinta itu tidak bisa dipaksakan. Terserak kamu mau menganggapku gila atau pengecut atau apalah sesukamu, tapi yang pasti hanya itu yang  bisa aku lakukan. Banyak  orang bilang kalu bagaimanapun keadaannya atau apapun resikonya, kita harus mengungkapkan perasaan kita pada orang yang kita cintai agar tidak ada penyesalan dikemudian hari, ya kan? Tapi teori itu tidak berlaku untukku. Aku akan menyesal jika mengatakan perasaanku padanya, karena setelah aku mengatakan perasaanku padanya, aku yakin semuanya akan berubah.. semuanya akan berbeda, jauh berbeda.. Aku.. entahlah, hanya itu yang bisa aku lakukan. Terserah kamu mau menilai aku seperti apa. Tapi memang begitulah keadaannya

 

I really love him, I feel like I can’t live without him. It seems biased, but that’s how I really feel. Aku pernah hampir gila karena hanya bisa memendam perasaan ini. Tapi saat dia bercerita kepadaku tentang seseorang yang sangat dia cintai, walaupun rasanya sakit sekali,  aku melihat kebahagiaan di matanya. Aku melihat kebahagiaan di  raut wajahnya. Dia begitu bersemangat jika bercerita tentang dia.  Saat dia bersama  orang yang dia cintai, aku bisa merasakan kalau dialah sumber kebahagiaannya, bukan aku. Dan sejak saat itu aku sadar, aku akan lebih gila lagi jika aku tidak bisa melihatnya bahagia seperti itu. Aku bahagia jika melihatnya bahagia. Aku hanya bisa membiarkan dia merasa bahagia dengam orang yang dia cintai, because may be it’s the only thing I could do for his happiness. Sesederhana itu yang bisa aku lakukan. Karena beginilah caraku mencintainya.

Pernah suatu saat, aku mencoba untuk melupakannya. Tapi itu sia-sia. How could I forget him when everything that I do reminds me of him? Dulu setelah lama tidak bertemu dengannya, aku kira aku telah berhasil melupakannya.  Tapi saat sadar semua hal yang aku lakukan justru selalu berhubungan dengannya, selalu mengingatkan aku padanya. Saat itu juga perthananku runtuh, rupanya aku belum bisa melupakannya. Aku masih mencintainya, tak pernah berubah, walaupun ada atau tidak ada dia disampingku.

You Say You Love Me

You say that you love the rain

But when it rains, you use an umbrella

Protecting your self for getting wet

You say love the sun

But when the sun shines brightly, you search for a shadow

And hide yourself behind it

You say you love the wind

But when the wind comes, you close the window

You don’t want to get the cold

That’s the reason why I’m scared when you say “I love you” to me

Our Home Is The Same Afterall

 "The King and the Poor Man"

There was a king who decided to take a tour of his country. As he passed by different places, everyone rushed to see him. However, while passing by a certain place, he noticed a poor old man who did not pay any attention to the king's arrival and remained engaged in his own activities.

The king went up to this poor man and asked why he did not join the people to see him. The poor man replied, "Before you, there was another king who once passed by this place. Everyone gathered to see him as well. But, few days later he died and was buried in a place nearby. A poor man also died during that time and was buried near the king's grave.

After some time, a strong flood passed through that area causing those graves to overturn. As a result, the bones of the poor man became mixed up with those of the king's. We could not differentiate between them any longer. After seeing this, it does not matter to me anymore as to who is a king and who is a beggar. "In the end, our home is the same."

 

 

source: united muslim nations

100 truths

ID:
born at: October 27, 1992
Weight: 47 kg
Height: 161 cm
Hobby : reading books, hanging out with my bestfriends, jogging, watching movies

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: water :D
2. Last phone call: my father
3. Last text message: my bestfriend, SHIKA
4. Last song you listened to: perfect two by Auburn

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone: never dated anyone, I have my own commitment on this dating thingy
7. Been cheated on: umm may be haha
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nahhh, never kissed someone.. but if the question isn’t someone but something, then YES! I have
9. Lost someone special: yeahh :’(
10. Been depressed: yeah, i’ve been played, he made me put my hope high, then he crushed it..it hurt as hell
11. Been drunk and threw up: BIG NO!!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Purple
13. Red
14. Black

LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: absolutely
17. Laughed until you *nearly* cried: it happened a lot
18. Met someone who changed you: ummm, no.. no one will ever  change me, but someone may be the reason I change
19. Found out who your true friends were: yeaa, they’re my bestfriends when I was in high school
20. Found out someone was talking about you: noo
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: haha, nahh
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: half or more
23. How many kids do you want to have: may be 1 or 2
24. Do you have any pets: yes, a duck.. well, he’s dead now
25. Do you want to change your name: NO!! my parents have  given me the best name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: ummmm, I forget hahha
27. What time did you wake up today:  7 am haha
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping and dreaming, duh!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my future, may be?
30. Last time you saw your Mother:  just now
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: noo, im perfectly happy for who I am now
32. What are you listening to right now: I want it that way by backstreet boys
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: YEAH!! He was my exchange teacher while I was in high school
34. What's getting on your nervous right now: my future
35. Most visited webpage: my blog, twitter, tumblr
36. What’s your real name: Dewi Lestari
37. Nicknames: dewi, dedew, iwed
38. Relationship Status: IM SINGLE AND HAPPY
39. Zodiac sign?: Scorpio
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?: SD N bendan ngisor 01-02
42. Middle School?: SMP N 13 Semarang
43. High school/college?: 3 International State Senior High school
44. Hair colour: a bit red
45. Tall or short: tall, may be haha
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: yeah, kinda
48. What do you like about yourself? : umm, dunno
49. Piercings: only on my ears, for wearing earrings, of course
50. Tattoos: NO
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: when I was about 3 years old
53. First piercing: when I was baby, may be haha
54. First best friend: Manar fathul hanifah sutisna ( my elementary school friend)
55. First sport you joined: umm, running?
56. First vacation : jogja
58. First job : teaching my neighbours haha
59. Eating: rice?
60. Drinking: water?
61. Doing: blogging, writing, reading, hanging out, jogging
62. Listening to: music, duh! I don’t like listening to bullshit
63. Waiting for: being accepted in STAN.. amin J

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?:  sure, but noy now
65. Get Married?: im still having my education!
66. Career?: prosecutor or STAN, hopefully.. but my mom wants me to be like my grandpa, Pilot
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: lips
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic hahaha
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant



HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Eww NO!
77. Drank hard liquor: NO and hopefully NEVER
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes, I have
79. Sex on first date: WTF? No sex before marriage, because once you have sex before you’re married, you’ll get pregnant and die haha
80. Broken someone's heart: ummm, may be?
82. Been arrested: never
83. Turned someone down: may be?
84. Cried when someone died: YES
85. Fallen for a friend? : nope


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: OF COURSE
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: not really
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: NO
92. Angels: YES, they sure exist

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: pernah pacaran aja engga
95. Did you sing today?: YEP, who doesn’t?
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: no, I would never go back in time,, like I said in the first place, im perfectly happy where I am now
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: nope, I don’t wanna relive anything in my life
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: YES
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: SURE

Allah give me everything i need

I asked for Wisdom...
And ALLAH gave me Problems to solve.

I asked for prosperity...
And ALLAH gave me a Brain and Brawn to work .

I asked for Courage...
And ALLAH gave me obstacles to overcome.

I asked for Love...
And ALLAH gave me Troubled people to help.

I asked for Favors...
And ALLAH gave me Opportunities.

“I received nothing I wanted...
But I received everything I needed."